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the "not so insane"...

In a span of a couple of days I got to see the inside of two separate minds.  One that was full of darkness and one that was full of sadness.  I call them each "the insane" and the "not so insane".  The "insane" one lived life outside of a locked place.  Being able to come and go as he pleased.  The "not so insane" one was locked up inside 4 walls not being free to come and go as she pleased. 

I will first post about the "not so insane" one.

On our way down to Texas we stopped at the Glore Psychiatric Museum.  We thought that it would be interesting to see since a couple of us had read a book called The Vanishing Act of Esme Lennox.  Esme Lennox was sent by her family when she was in her 30's to live in this asylum after she had been raped.  Esme lived there until it closed its doors when she was well into her 80's.  We didn't really see anything about Esme, but we did get to see into the mind of a woman who spent time at this place.  I'm not sure what happened to her or how her life ended.  I don't even know her name and I wish I did.   


The "not so insane" one was given a needle and thread, it's been told that she expressed her "thoughts" and "wishes" through the embroidery.  I have a hard time believing that she was expressing her wishes here.


The embroidery sampler was very colorful and the words she wrote were all about getting married.


If you can read some of the writing you will see she writes of cake, the preacher, the church, to have and to hold, for better or for worse....take this man to be your husband.


I have my own theory on what happened....I think this woman was going to be married to a man who she loved with all her heart and all her soul.  I think she was planning her wedding and all the wedding preparations were set and in place and the day before her wedding she got word that her soon to be husband had died.  One of the writings in the sampler says "I am getting married in the morning".


My theory continues that this woman loved this man so deeply and couldn't live life without him, that her mind just couldn't move forward.  She was stuck at the time in her life when she was to be married not able to move on with her life.

She wasn't crazy or insane...She was grieving.